Getting Close Now

It's going on 12. I still need to take a shower. I am holding off on the shower so that I can get in there and let the hot water relax me right before we leave for the doctors office. This will be my last entry before we leave. Getting nervous now and I can feel my anxiety level getting higher. And for the first time in quite a while, I can feel that gnawing feeling inside......my body requesting a nicotine fix. Most likely caused by by my nervousness. It will pass. I will take some pills before I leave for my anxiety. Those should relax me for the surgery. I am really glad that I will be for the most part knocked out for the surgery. The less I know as far as what is going on, the better off I will be. Well everyone, time to sign off. I will see you on the flip side. Depending on how I feel, I will do an entry later on tonight. Wish me luck!!!

The Day Has Arrived

Well today is the day for my surgery. I got up at 5AM this morning and had a quick bite to eat since I can't eat anything 8 hours prior to my surgery. I went back to bed and had a really hard time getting much sleep. The anxiety is growing as the minutes slowly move by. Trying to get my head right and in a good place for this whole thing. I sure will be glad when it is over with. I will check in as the time gets closer.

Almost There!!!!

Hi everyone,
Been laying low and keeping myself as busy as possible. I have been doing my best to not think about my surgery tomorrow. For the most part it has worked fairly well. Really dreading tomorrow but I also want to get it over with. I want to get on the healing side of things and not the anticipatory and anxiety filled side, which I am currently on. Unfortunately my sugery isn't until 2PM EST. I am not allowed to eat or drink anything all day. As if I won't be miserable enough...now no food or drink. Not sure if I will write anything right after the surgery. I will have to see how I feel. I won't be able to eat any solid foods for several days. I tried that after the last surgery. It wasn't worth the pain involved. I stocked up on 4 six packs of pudding in various flavors and 2 cartons of ice cream and of course some cans of chicken noodle soup. Believe it or not, a person can get sick and tired of pudding and ice cream. I never thought it was possible until I had to do it. Give me steak, thin crust pizza and all of the crunchiest crackers that you can find...real food. Because tonight will be my last "real" meal for a little while, I am going to splurge. I have been wanting to try the new spicey hot chicken wings at KFC. So tonight it will be a small box of KFC hot spicey chicken wings and a large extra crunchy chicken breast. Tonight the diet goes out the window. I will definately make up for it over the next several days. Well, it's time for my walk. I will check in with y'all in the near future.