Almost There!!!!

Hi everyone,
Been laying low and keeping myself as busy as possible. I have been doing my best to not think about my surgery tomorrow. For the most part it has worked fairly well. Really dreading tomorrow but I also want to get it over with. I want to get on the healing side of things and not the anticipatory and anxiety filled side, which I am currently on. Unfortunately my sugery isn't until 2PM EST. I am not allowed to eat or drink anything all day. As if I won't be miserable enough...now no food or drink. Not sure if I will write anything right after the surgery. I will have to see how I feel. I won't be able to eat any solid foods for several days. I tried that after the last surgery. It wasn't worth the pain involved. I stocked up on 4 six packs of pudding in various flavors and 2 cartons of ice cream and of course some cans of chicken noodle soup. Believe it or not, a person can get sick and tired of pudding and ice cream. I never thought it was possible until I had to do it. Give me steak, thin crust pizza and all of the crunchiest crackers that you can find...real food. Because tonight will be my last "real" meal for a little while, I am going to splurge. I have been wanting to try the new spicey hot chicken wings at KFC. So tonight it will be a small box of KFC hot spicey chicken wings and a large extra crunchy chicken breast. Tonight the diet goes out the window. I will definately make up for it over the next several days. Well, it's time for my walk. I will check in with y'all in the near future.

One Day Closer

I hope that everyone is doing well today. Only 4 days left until my surgery. Have you ever noticed that when you have something coming up, that you really don't want to do, time seems to slow down plus your mind gets preoccupied with whatever the situation is. Usually I can keep myself busy enough during the day that I don't think about the surgery much. Unfortunately I have to try to get some sleep at some point in time and it is at this time that my mind races around and gets to thinking about things. When I get to thinking about things, it usually leads to no good and I don't get much sleep either. I am also the type of person that when I know that I have to get something done, something that I really am not looking foward to, I get to the point where I resign myself to the fact that whatever it is, it has to be done. With that in mind, I hate waiting around for the "special" day to arrive. If I have to get it done, I would rather do it today, right now, even yesterday. That way I can put it behind me and move foward. The waiting drives me bonkers. I am sure that I am not the only one that feels this way. Can anyone else relate to this? I need to get going here. I have to go pick up my prescriptions that will be used on the day of my surgery and the days after it is done. If I have to get this surgery done, the least they can do is...GIMME DRUGS!!!!!

My Journey Continues

Good morning folks. Well, I just got back from seeing Dr.Cross...my oncologist. He was very re-assuring and had a great calming effect during our talk. He said that the report was telling me that something was not right or normal with the cells in the area on the right side of my tongue, where the raised white spots are. He said that it is normal practice and really the only way of truly finding out if there is anything more going on, by doing the additional surgery. He told me that there is a 90% chance that nothing cancerous will be found and the findings from the next surgery will tell a more complete story. There were no other options available. No x-rays or scans that could be done to determine if there was a problem deeper under the skin tissue. Dr. Cross set me up with an appointment to see him about 1 week prior to us going up to Canada for vacation, which is the 2nd week in Sept. He wants to see me after the surgery is completed and after I receive the findings from this surgery. Dr. Cross also gave me 2 scripts for drugs. Some pills for anxiety for just prior to the surgery and some heavy duty pain pills for after the surgery. I really like to have everything set up so that after the surgery I don't have to go out and get the pills. That is something that I never could understand. A person goes through surgery and on their way out the doctors door or wherever the surgery took place, they are given scripts for drugs to ease the pain etc. I don't think that the doctors get it. Who wants to be going to a drug store and waiting around the get a script or scripts filled before being able to go home and just vedge out in bed. Who wants to deal with that. That is one thing that has always frosted my twinkies. At least this time it got taken care of before the surgery. What a novel concept!!!
With the info that I got from Dr. Cross, I called the oral surgeon and set up the surgery for this upcoming Tuesday, 7/29 at 2PM. As much as I am dreading this surgery, I am to a pont where I just want to get it over with. I have resigned myself to the fact that I have to get it down. I want to do it, get it over with and put it behind me. Also, I want to give myself enough time to completely heal up so that I can enjoy myself when we go up to Canada. I will have a little over 6 weeks to let my tongue heal up. Mentally I am kind of washed out with all of this stuff going on. I think I will give myself a break today from going for any walks and just take it easy. I will keep you abreast of how I am feeling and what is going on as my surgery date gets closer. Until the next entry...take care and have a good day.